Surgery, Miracles, Paintings, Poems


may my heart always be open to little
birds who are the secrets of living
whatever they sing is better than to know
and if men should not hear them men are old

may my mind stroll about hungry
and fearless and thirsty and supple
and even if it’s sunday may i be wrong
for whenever men are right they are not young

and may myself do nothing usefully
and love yourself so more than truly
there’s never been quite such a fool who could fail
pulling all the sky over him with one smile

ee cummings

My mother had 2 surgeries on her spine this week. One on Tuesday for 8 hours. Rest day. One on Thursday for 8 hours. A complex spine surgery to reconstruct her curve from scoliosis so bad she couldn’t walk anymore. They put in rods. She gained back 3 inches in height. She’s 73. She was under anesthesia for almost 16 hours total. I haven’t felt just how much, how badly I loved someone for a long time. I was teary and torn open for about 3 days. Very unusual anymore. Its good to know I’m in here.

On the same day my mom went in for surgery, my dear colleague and friend told me he had a brain tumor and was going in for surgery on Friday. Nothing can prepare us for these sorts of moments in life. I noticed I was taking really big breaths and sort of floating and staring….I walked around the house that day not really able to engage. Kept checking my phone for updates. Time passed. Modern medicine miracles: 2 days after spine surgery (complete with a frankenstein staple zipper scar ) my mom is up with a giant brace, walking down the hospital corridor with a body guard on either side. My friend got his skull cap opened up, a tumor removed, 2 days of sleep, and went home today.

Enjoy your healthy body everyone!  Here’s a blue piece, and the process in photos~







25 thoughts on “Surgery, Miracles, Paintings, Poems

  1. I’m very moved emotionally by your heART and what you have experienced. Life has a way of catching us off guard. Please be gentle with yourself. 💜 May your mom and colleague continue to heal. And may you find peace in your creating your art. Hugs! 💖

  2. Because of my stupidly adrenelin fuelled passions I’ve had something like 14 procedures on my spine over the years. No point living if you don’t actually live eh . . . With everything that happens in life, the truth is we may never know, care to know or understand the reasons why something happens. Knowing and dealing with the affects of why has to be enough and it’s always harder for the nearest and dearest.

  3. I hope both your mother and friend have amazing speedy recoveries and you can continue to take the time to process, through these beautiful artworks you create. 🙂 I totally agree, if one has a healthy body – enjoy it, and look after it!

    1. Processing with art seems like a good place to focus…but it’s actually hard for me to settle down enough…I’m lightly touching in on things…like a little ADD bird…flitting about during times such as these.❤️🔺

      1. once in awhile, when life events ‘happen’ there comes a restless unease that hinders the calm stillness needed for painting; so I just don’t paint for long stretches. I’m sending warm and happy, good thoughts your way ! 🙂

  4. Sending you prayers for a speedy healing for your mom and friend and peace for yourself. The worst is over! Your beautiful art says it all!

  5. I am glad your mother and colleague seem to be doing well so far. Back surgery is no walk in the park. For that matter, neither is having your skull opened up. I hope their healing continues. I will send good thoughts your way.

  6. Sending you love. It’s painful being ripped apart while watching loved ones suffer. And I can relate to that surreal stuck spacey limbo zone. I think it’s great you are making art and sharing your inner self. Thank you.

    1. So king of you to write. Yes, my mother is coming thru so well! She’s picked up a staph infection, but her structural health and mobility are vastly improving! My colleague’s surgery was successful also. I’m grateful to their doctors and to all of our strong healing community.

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